Lonely Leadership

Lonely Leadership

Lonely it feels
to be this way
I let myself catch my breath
but at a standstill I am still here today

The pressure on my shoulders
feels unbearable to carry
and although it hurts
it is a life I have chosen to marry

But strong as I have taught myself to be
even this unimaginably, heavy burden can feel light
because at the end of night before my eyes close
I recognize the leadership within me

Half of the fun is the hard road ahead
half of the fun is in the ride
whether it be a group or simply just me
my life I will live, selfishly-free

Because I still hear you in my sleep
I always hear you in my head
you beat twice for every single heartbeat that thumps in my chest
reminding me of your pain that refrains me from unproductive rest

You are like a sweet tune
My personal melody of pain
That only I can seem to hear
Throughout the day
That keeps me going
Keeps me alive
To that very day
When I'll be dying

I promise you all

I will always continue whole-heartedly fighting

-A12